The post you read prior to this is, however, the truth. I love love love staying home with the boys and wouldn't have it any other way, if it was up to me. Unfortunately, our bills that are piling up and the phone calls I'm getting do not agree with me and don't care what I want.
Just a couple weeks ago my husbands hours were cut at work. While we're so thankful he still has a job, his new paycheck with the lack of hours just isn't doing it for us. I have to be realistic and see the bottom line and {deep sigh} realize that no matter how hard we try, it's just not happening. We were doing alright before his hours got cut, but now? No good. It's not good at all.
... fighting back the tears ...
I'm not looking at full time office/bank jobs, I'm not looking at full time anything. I simply submitted an application for a small part time (10-15 hours) job, during the evening, after my husband gets home from work. I have this pit in the bottom of my stomach thinking about missing out on husband time {seriously, when will I see him?}, family time, dinner time, putting the boys to bed time, grey's anatomy/the bachelor time, etc... but we're drowning and I don't know what else to do.
The good news is, if I get the job it's something I always thought sounded fun.
Prayers for me during this transitional time are much appreciated, and needed.
Ugh, Megan. That saying comes to mind ...
ReplyDelete"If you want to hear God laugh, tell him your plans."
I have lived that every day for quite awhile. I just think of my job in terms of it being a temporary solution. I ask myself, do I want to do this every day until I retire? NO! But it's okay for now and it helps us pay the bills and work toward the future we want for our family.
Things will work out. I swear they will. HUGS!
Prayers of mine, you've got them. :)
ReplyDeleteI found myself contemplating the same thing so many times with different scenarios of if we live here, then I will get a part time job. Or even just the slightest extra will make things less tense. I find the idea bittersweet! A chance to get out of the house, some extra money. And then the downfall, time away. No matter what, your decision will be blessed and no matter what, as many times things change, you are not alone in these struggles and stress. And sometimes while we're growing our families and providing it can mean paycheck to paycheck! But overall, it doesn't matter what's in the bank but the love and joy of being a wife and mom to all your boys!
ReplyDeleteAh, I love your honesty. It is so refreshing!!!
ReplyDeletePraying for you Megs! (and Tyler too!) Your heavenly Father knows the desires of your heart and He will bless you for them.
I think you'd be a fantastic barista at Starbucks, or a wonderful smiling face at Baby Gap or you could open an etsy shop. You are soooo creative! You'd be great at it.