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Wednesday, November 18, 2009
Sunday, November 8, 2009
Where in the world is Carmen Sandiago?
Sorry for being MIA the past week. It was a week from youknowwhere and each day I just focused on getting through the day and praying the next day would be better.
I was ganged up on multiple times this week by a couple of my employees and thrown under a semi by their comments and very hurtful things they did and said about me. I was THIS.CLOSE. to just quitting... I spent hours a couple times this week in tears in my office... just feeling overwhelmed and wondering what in the world I did to deserve it. I guess I just feel like this whole job situation would be different if someday I could look back on this and say "You know what... it was worth it. All of the stress, anxiety, and hurtful things I went through was worth it." But the sad thing is, I'll never be able to say that. I'll never be able to say that what I'm going through has made me a better person, because I really doubt it ever will. Anyway, I won't go in to detail because honestly, I just don't want to relive it or think about it on this beautiful Sunday.
Jaxon and I spent last weekend in Iowa visiting Tyler's family, while Tyler was out pheasant hunting. We had a really good time and Jaxon had a blast playing with his uncles :) It is always a relaxing time for me to go there because I am forced to sit and relax instead of worrying about my house and all things I should be doing. My sister met us there on Saturday to join us for trick-or-treating... here's a couple pics.
Jaxon turns 9 months tomorrow so I am excited to see how much he weighs at his appointment on Tuesday. Just can't believe it's been 9 months already... sigh! This week, I think, will be the end of my nursing days as he now has 2 big chomping teeth and bit me HARD {to the point of bleeding} this weekend. So the decision is now, do I quit and feel like a failure for not making it to a year, or do I suffer through? It has to be possible to train babies to not bite since people nurse a lot longer than 9 months, but I don't know if I can handle the chance of going through that pain again!
Yesterday at work this lady came through with her sister and I sat and watched them laugh and drink their Starbucks together. It made me really miss having spur-of-the-moment times with my Sister. Hopefully someday again soon.
It is beautiful today... 70 degrees in November... really?!?! Where's my snow and freezing cold weather? Although I must admit I am loving this quick break from winter... I have been able to take Jaxon on a couple walks this week and that really helped me unwind from work each day. Going to try and get outside to enjoy the day today again.
Have I said lately that I love my house?? I don't think I say that enough. I spend so much time thinking about how it really needs to be cleaned and the laundry really needs to be done and how there's always something to do... I truly don't spend enough time being thankful for it. I love having a place of our own, where we can create memories and raise our son. I love the way that our personalities have come through my decorating and the way that it is becoming our home and not just a roof over our heads. And I love that God has truly blessed us in so many ways. He is faithful to provide for all of our needs and I am so grateful for that.
Anyway, I think that's enough randomness for now... Here's to hoping this week will be much-less-eventful than the last, and hopefully I'll be back soon. Pray for me if you think about it... I need it.
I was ganged up on multiple times this week by a couple of my employees and thrown under a semi by their comments and very hurtful things they did and said about me. I was THIS.CLOSE. to just quitting... I spent hours a couple times this week in tears in my office... just feeling overwhelmed and wondering what in the world I did to deserve it. I guess I just feel like this whole job situation would be different if someday I could look back on this and say "You know what... it was worth it. All of the stress, anxiety, and hurtful things I went through was worth it." But the sad thing is, I'll never be able to say that. I'll never be able to say that what I'm going through has made me a better person, because I really doubt it ever will. Anyway, I won't go in to detail because honestly, I just don't want to relive it or think about it on this beautiful Sunday.
Jaxon and I spent last weekend in Iowa visiting Tyler's family, while Tyler was out pheasant hunting. We had a really good time and Jaxon had a blast playing with his uncles :) It is always a relaxing time for me to go there because I am forced to sit and relax instead of worrying about my house and all things I should be doing. My sister met us there on Saturday to join us for trick-or-treating... here's a couple pics.
Jaxon turns 9 months tomorrow so I am excited to see how much he weighs at his appointment on Tuesday. Just can't believe it's been 9 months already... sigh! This week, I think, will be the end of my nursing days as he now has 2 big chomping teeth and bit me HARD {to the point of bleeding} this weekend. So the decision is now, do I quit and feel like a failure for not making it to a year, or do I suffer through? It has to be possible to train babies to not bite since people nurse a lot longer than 9 months, but I don't know if I can handle the chance of going through that pain again!
Yesterday at work this lady came through with her sister and I sat and watched them laugh and drink their Starbucks together. It made me really miss having spur-of-the-moment times with my Sister. Hopefully someday again soon.
It is beautiful today... 70 degrees in November... really?!?! Where's my snow and freezing cold weather? Although I must admit I am loving this quick break from winter... I have been able to take Jaxon on a couple walks this week and that really helped me unwind from work each day. Going to try and get outside to enjoy the day today again.
Have I said lately that I love my house?? I don't think I say that enough. I spend so much time thinking about how it really needs to be cleaned and the laundry really needs to be done and how there's always something to do... I truly don't spend enough time being thankful for it. I love having a place of our own, where we can create memories and raise our son. I love the way that our personalities have come through my decorating and the way that it is becoming our home and not just a roof over our heads. And I love that God has truly blessed us in so many ways. He is faithful to provide for all of our needs and I am so grateful for that.
Anyway, I think that's enough randomness for now... Here's to hoping this week will be much-less-eventful than the last, and hopefully I'll be back soon. Pray for me if you think about it... I need it.
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