But, it has to be done. Reality hurts.
Sorry about that.
I'm so tired of feeling this way...
depressed
really unhappy with myself
tired ALL.THE.TIME
eating when i'm happy/sad/nervous/mad/and any time in-between
self-conscious
jealous of others who don't look like me
As much as I hate working out... and I mean HATE it... I have to do it.
For myself... for my general overall happiness.
For my kids! They deserve a happy Mom.
For my husband... he loves me no matter what, but I want him to really like me too.
And most importantly, for God. He has called us to take care of our bodies and I'm disobeying Him on a daily basis.
So here's what I'm doing... and holy buckets, I can't believe I'm posting this for the world wide web.
I'm working out. 3-4 times a week, running..weights..elliptical..classes..ZUMBA!
I'm watching what I eat. 1200 calories a day, no more, no less. No fancy expensive diets or counting points... just simple math. (myfitnesspal iPhone app is helping tremendously!)
I'm taking advantage of any opportunity I have to be active. Going on more walks, running around the yard with the boys, going on frequent bike rides.
I did really good a couple months ago. I lost 12 pounds and really started feeling good about myself.
Then my knees started crapping out on me...
Then I got sick...
And once I was better, I once again used my knees as a crutch. While it wasn't a lie, they really KILLED me, it was still an excuse. I was afraid of the pain.
Because my Dad, who has had knee surgery and horrible knee troubles his entire life, is now a runner! He's running a MARATHON with my Sister this year... what!?
If he can do it, so can I.
I have exactly 25 pounds to be back to my pre-pregnancy weight. That number hurts to type... but you know what? In 2007-2008, I lost almost 80 pounds by doing the same exact formula as above.
I can do this.
I can do this. So can you. Is anyone interested in taking this journey with me? Maybe we can make a link-up out of it.
Each Wednesday I'll be weighing in, and reporting my results. You guys are going to keep me accountable. I need the help, the words, the motivation, the encouragement.
So here we go! I started running + counting calories last week, and so I'll weigh in for the first time tomorrow.
See you then. :)
YOU CAN DO IT!!!!!
ReplyDeleteMegan, you will KILL those 25 pounds. Get it, girl!!
ReplyDeleteAlso, I want you to know that I think you are beautiful!!
ReplyDeleteOkay, so I'm going to dip my toes in these waters. Probably not the expected enthusiastic response but I feel peaceful. I am convinced that these 30 extra pounds are not just simply a self-control issue but a spiritual one that I feel ready to tackle. Bring it on! Dear Lord help me to be able to say the same thing tomorrow morning! Debbie P.
ReplyDeleteWell, I love you just the way you are and so does God :)
ReplyDeleteBut if this will make you feel better mentally and physically then I say DO IT, girl!
YOU GO GIRL! I have felt the same way before I started a month ago! It takes tremendous amounts of will power and because you've done it once, you can believe you can do it again! Will it be torture, at time, can we get through it, you bet! Now, even after a month, while I still don't like my body, I can slowly feeling it change! GET IT GIRL!
ReplyDeleteyou go, girl! i`ve started exercising {biking}for over a month now so now i just need to EAT LESS, lol :P.
ReplyDeleteHey friend! I love you for posting this, for being vulnerable and open. You rock.
ReplyDeleteFirst thing: you're beautiful, just an FYI ;)
Second thing: Have you read "Made to Crave"? It's awesome, eye opening, and super encouraging. I sincerely recommend it.
Third thing: I'm with you girl, I'm THIRTY pounds up from my wedding weight and SO unhappy. I can't do a ton until I'm not anemic, but I am tracking {sparkpeople} and I can still go for walks! So, count me in sister :)
Fourth thing: Good running shoes= life. Get fitted if you can. I don't know what part of your knee is hurt, but running with support is really helpful too. And good form! My husband runs with IT band support for his knees, but obviously that might not be your issue. Runner's world is always a good resource, and I'm happy to help [if I can!] with the running tips I've learned along the way.
And finally, this is so encouraging, thank you so much for sharing it :)
Totally understand. Totally with you.
ReplyDeleteHaving kids has changed my body completely.
I've lost weight this past month.
But it's been super tough.
I admire your journey. I'm here to cheer you on!
I hope you rock it out!
P.S. I nominated you for a couple awards on my blog!! :)
ReplyDeleteMegan, I just want you to know that I think you are beautiful, inside and out.
ReplyDeleteAnd I'm with you on this. I would love a link up, or even just emails to keep us going. I'm about 10 pounds from my pre-pregnancy weight, but I want to lose 25 pounds overall. Let me know what you think. :)
You can do it! I'm on the same journey, can wait to read your updates!
ReplyDeleteYou can do it Megan. I'm looking forward to you ROCKING those 25 pounds, and me turning to you for advice and support post-pregnancy in me getting back to "normal". I know you can!
ReplyDeleteSo very proud of your honesty and vulnerability! I know you can do this and I'm sure it will help your knees too to get the extra weight off! You have lots of people supporting you! YOU GO GIRL, I KNOW YOU CAN DO IT!!!!
ReplyDeleteFirst, you are so beautiful, every time I see you lately I think you are looking awesome. Second, I totally want to do this with you (once Jude comes), so please hold me accountable! I may only have 10 or 15 lbs to lose to get back to my pre-pregnancy weight but I have about 55 lbs to lose to get back to my wedding weight, which is my dream. So let's do it!
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