One on one.

For me, the hardest part of having 2 kids is the inability to give both of them the same amount of attention.  At this particular stage in the boys lives, Jaxon definitely needs more attention.  I am constantly getting him something, feeding him something, watching him so he doesn't run in the road, playing with him to keep him happy, etc.  Cohen is such an amazing baby that most of the time he is happy and content to just watch. He doesn't sit on the floor and cry (although we do have our days!) and for the most part is easy.  He doesn't like to snuggle or rock at night, he prefers to just be laid down.  These boys are polar opposites I tell ya!

Sometimes I feel like I have blinked and missed most of Cohen's growing up.  He is almost 10 months already people, and the enemy loves to make me feel guilty about how I took note of every detail of Jaxon's life... and you better believe his baby book was updated monthly, sometimes daily.  Or how I would spend hours upon hours just staring at Jaxon as a newborn. Yeah, I might have been a little overboard, but you can see why it makes me feel bad that I can't do the same with Cohen. It's virtually impossible... I mean, how can it be?  I have a 2 year old to juggle as well.

Talking to my Mom the other day, she told me to simply make the most of the (few) times that Cohen and I do have together, alone.  This little guy wakes up at least an hour earlier than his big brother each afternoon, so that hour of time... it's ours.  I put everything else aside and play, nurse, hold, snuggle, and just watch him as he takes in the world around him.

The other day I snapped a few pictures of us.  He was fascinated with the fact that he could see himself on the screen... such a ham!

 

 

 

 

 

 haha, cracks me up when he tries to nurse OVER my shirt ;)

see ya mom... 

I love you, little guy. Being second born will never define where you stand in my heart.