This is the question that I keep hearing from so many people. It's amazing the amount of love and support we have felt from so many people, 99% of them hours upon hours away from us.
The answer? It depends on the day...
Yesterday? Great! Cohen was easy-peasy. Jaxon was happy. The weather was beautiful. We went on a long walk, Jaxon played for hours outside, Cohen didn't make a peep unless he was hungry. Daddy came home from work... and a great way to end my day? Grey's Anatomy was on.
Today? Not so hot. I am overwhelmed. Stressed. Tired. In pain. Feeling sorry for myself missing my friends. Staring at my dirty house wishing I could clean it, but can't due to my c-section recovery. Thinking about the groceries I need to get, but can't drive for another week. Honestly scared that it will never get easier.
I know we all have our good days, and our bad. Today just is the ladder of the two.
Overall though, we are doing good. Cohen really is a great baby. He nurses well, sleeps for 5-6 hour stretches at night, ::knock on wood::, and is a very quiet and laid-back baby. Jaxon seems to really like his brother, he is constantly all over him, which makes for some stressful times worrying about the safety of the baby... especially when Tyler walks into the room as Jaxon is pulling Cohen out of the bouncer with one arm... yeah, mental note to self: never leave the two of them alone in a room. Ever.
I can't wait for Thanksgiving when my family comes to town. My Mom is the only one who has met Cohen, so I can't wait for the rest of the clan to meet him. Like I told my friend Karalie, having a baby is so fun and exciting, but it's even more fun and exciting when you're surrounded by people who are excited for you, and about the baby. Hence the reason I really really really miss KC. See... told you I was feeling bad for myself today.
Anyway, if you're not my friend on facebook, here's a link to view all the pictures we took while we were at the hospital, in case you're interested: http://www.facebook.com/album.php?aid=563684&id=500320088&l=799dcc28a3
Now, here's a little sneak peek as to what we've been up to since getting home from the hospital:
Lots of "supervised" big brother holding little brother moments
Lots of time spent sunbathing, trying to get rid of jaundice.
Nana and Papa came to visit to meet Cohen
Papa and Tyler made Jax a sandbox while they were here! We've already spent hours upon hours outside enjoying it. Now if I could just teach Jax to leave the sand IN the sandbox ...
Jaxon and his Uncle Cooper shootin' the breeze... in their matching Hawks gear. The only difference is Cooper's says "I'm a hawkeye, like my Dad" and Jaxon's says "I'm a hawkeye, like my Grandpa".
Lots of time spent in the swing ...
Brotherly love ...
Went on our first outing ... to the park and out to dinner.
Jax spotted a dog while we were there ...
Swinging ... love his smile :)
Cohen's umbilical cord came off, so it was time for his first bath ...
Not a peep out of him ... he loved it! Much different from Jaxon's first bath, ha!
My Mom bought me this wrap, it's called a "Sleepy Wrap", very similar to the Moby. Cohen has spent lots of time in here each day... it's the only way I'm able to still help/play with Jaxon and hold Cohen at the same time. He loves it, I'm sure it's very comforting for a newborn to be wrapped up tightly against your Mom's chest. Oh, and it's handy for times like now when I'm blogging... much easier to type with two hands than one. ;) Thanks Mom... and yes, I promise he can breathe in it... you can quit worrying about him now. :)
Oh, and just lots of time spent being adorable ... which, I guess comes pretty natural. ;)
We've also been going on a morning walk each day... here Jax is holding Cohen's hand during the majority of our walk. Swoon... :) Even though most days I don't feel good, I keep hearing my doctor's voice telling me the more I can get up and move around, the better and quicker my recovery will be. So... on walks we go!
How about that for picture overload?
Well, I guess "mommy time" is over for the day... I hear Jaxon crying up from his nap, Cohen is whimpering needing to be fed, I still haven't showered... oh.. my phone is ringing, and the dog is barking.... {just kidding, we don't have a dog.}
Where's my diet coke.
And... here I go!
more like "where's my vodka?" lol. :)
ReplyDeleteOh...and...on the pic that you said 'cohen lost his umbilical cord'....what is Jaxon chewing on? please tell me its not Cohen's cord????? *URRRP*
Bahhaaaha, no Ang... that is the stick to a sucker he had just finished. :)
ReplyDeletehahaha, oh honey. I know I shouldn't but you make me laugh. I can totally relate to what you're going through. 100% my story too.
ReplyDeleteI promise you it does get better. I mean, it's still very tiring. I won't lie. And I still have the fear that Landon will somehow kill Brigham by stepping on his head or smothering him with a pillow or something while I have my head turned. But once the baby gets a little bigger you have less fear.
I'm so glad you have a wrap. That is seriously the only way I could get anything done. And Brigham would never sleep. But every time I put the wrap on it was lights out for him. And then I could breathe!
Both your boys are so beautiful. Really, I read this blog entry and I instantly remembered back to the early days. The days where I was so happy that my new baby was here but there was also a lot of anxiety over, well, everything.
Next time you're in KC please let me know. I'd love to get all our boys together and meet up!
Its great that you are settling in - try to soak up the good days so that when the bad ones come along you will know that tomorrow is another day. You have a wonderfully beautiful family!!
ReplyDeleteLove all these pictures, girl! Cohen is just beautiful. And Jaxon loving on Cohen is so precious (even if it's a little dangerous at times, haha)
ReplyDeleteI honestly could not do it if it were not for my family. I`m sorry that they don`t live close by... God bless
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