Ramblings.

Today's my last day one-on-one with Jaxon. {he's sleeping right now... hence the reason for this post} Tomorrow my Mom and Grandma will be flying in, which I'm crazy excited about. So today is it ... the last time I woke up because of just him, the last time we had breakfast and lunch alone, the last time we went to Toddler Time at the library alone, the last time we went on a walk alone... and the day is only half over, so there will be many more "lasts" today.

I heard a quote about love the other day... I can't remember whose blog it was on, and if these were the exact words, but it went something like this:

‎"The thing about love – it’s expansive. Finding more people to love does not take love away from those you already love."

It was a good reminder for me. That no matter who else in my life I find to love, including the boy who will make his appearance in 2 days... my love for the people that I already love will never change. My love for Jaxon won't diminish. My love for Tyler won't grow weak. My love for my family and friends won't change. It's just another person that God has blessed me with, and for that I'm so thankful.

It reminds me of something my cousin told me, when I first found out I was pregnant. She said to me "Right now, you love Jaxon with 100% of your heart. In your mind, you think once the baby comes that you'll love Jaxon with 80%, and the new baby with 20%. But you're wrong... God will give you another 100%. You will still love Jaxon with 100% of you, and suddenly you have another 100% to give to the new baby. You'll see..." I have never forgotten that... so thank you, Hollie.

As sad as I am for this chapter of my life to end {one-on-one time with Jaxon}, I am also excited for a new chapter to begin. My life will be flipped upside-down and most days I will probably be in tears by bedtime, but I know it will be filled with love. I know, without a doubt, that I will love every second. Because it's my life, and these are the boys that I've been blessed with.

On a less sappy note... here's some fun pictures from my iPhone this past week. {hence the crappy quality...sorry}

Sitting in a bucket ... hey, whatever is comfortable...

I have no idea where he learned this, but just this past week Jaxon puts things up to his face, like a mustache, and screams "HAHA!" ... it had me in tears one day from laughing so hard.

Doesn't quite understand that this is for the baby, not for him... he uses it as a recliner, when it's not supposed to recline. :)

Sitting and playing in the big box of clothes we got from Gma Nancy... again, wherever's comfortable...

Giving kisses to his Giraffe... all the sudden he is attached to this giraffe and his teddy bear. He has to have both at naps and gives them kisses and hugs before falling asleep {of course I'm watching this from the monitor... haha!}

Two peas in a pod... Daddy and Jax.

I am not sure I'll be back before the baby arrives, but I will definitely blog from the hospital and let you all know he's here. Thanks for the prayers... as the day approaches I am getting more and more nervous about the surgery itself... being in a new hospital with a new doctor and nurses and my HATE for needles gives me some anxiety when I think about it too much. But I am confident everything will be fine and next time you "see" me, I'll be a mom of two!

Finally, be strengthened by the LORD and by His vast strength.

Ephesians 6:10