The cold, hard truth.

Has anyone seen my energy?  It's missing from my body.  What about my motivation?  Gone.  Long gone.  Down the drain along with my energy. 

Because a lot of you think I have a clean house 24/7, here's proof that I don't. 


The last time this vaccuum was used was when my husband was cleaning his computer.  This thing hasn't touched carpet in weeks.


We still haven't unpacked from our trip to Columbia last weekend.


Let's not even talk about making the bed.  It's pointless when I spend so much of my time in it.


I also haven't done laundry in 3 weeks.  Fear not ... this is on my to-do list for this weekend.


This BB&B coupon has been on the floor in the kitchen for over a week.  Pick it up?  Pshhh...


Dead flowers? Check.  Tupperware? Check.  Birthday gift bag? Check.  Cereal? Check check.  All on the counter where they don't belong?  Check check check.


Dirty dishes right above the dishwasher?  Of course!


MORE dirty dishes on the other side of the sink, but not IN the sink, because that would just make sense.


Random dish towels everywhere, oh - and this even one has a spoon to go with it!


I have a big huge pantry in my kitchen, but why use it when I can just throw everything on the counters?  Duhhh..


Ah yes, and lets not forget about the iron that has been sitting on our kitchen table for a few days now.  Why on the kitchen table?  Well, because it's so much easier to iron on the table than get the ironing board out... *big sigh*

I think that's enough embarassment for one day, don't you?

WARNING:  do NOT show up at our house without calling, uninvited, or without a 24-hour notice.  Not until my energy returns.

I'm smiling.

Today I had lunch today with a girl named Betsy from church.  She is pregnant and we were able to laugh, tear up, and talk about our lives and our journey that we've only just begun.  It was so refreshing to have lunch with someone.  A friend. 

That officially made my week.  It's all about the little things in life.  Thanks Betsy. :)

A tribute for my husband.

My emotions and thoughts and blogging have been so sporadic lately that I completely forgot to acknowledge our 3 YEAR ANNIVERSARY that my husband and I celebrated last Wednesday.  Woohoo - 3 years down, hundreds to go, right babe?  :)

Tyler took me to an amazing live jazz restaurant downtown KC and we had a blast.  He has been the most incredible, supportive person that I could ask for in the past couple weeks and I couldn't be more appreciative.  He has put up with my MANY sobbing sessions, held my hair back while I puke (sorry - TMI), he tucks me in for my daily naps and reassures me daily saying"it's okay, you're supposed to feel this way" when I'm crying because I feel lazy and so sick.  He is ALWAYS asking what he can do to help me feel better.  He makes dinner, cleans up, and never complains.  He holds me, hugs me, and is constantly telling me how much he loves me.  Not only that, but he responded to our baby news better than I did, which was completely unexpected for me.  Right after I told him he went out and bought me flowers and a "congratulations" balloon.  How stinkin' adorable.  

He is the best thing that God has EVER blessed me with.

And then yesterday we celebrated his birthday - I left work early so I would be able to take my nap and clean the house before he got home.  I also surprised him with his fav birthday cake - ice cream cake from DQ!  Yummy.  He was spoiled rotten with the gifts he received and spent the evening with a couple friends playing Halo and Poker.  So HAPPY BIRTHDAY baby... you are beyond amazing.

I am beyond blessed and thankful for him.  I can't say it enough.

A little wake-up call.

So today I went to get my prescription filled for my prenatal vitamins.  $57 dollars later (WITH insurance) I walked out with a 30 day supply. 

I'm going to be placing a call to my OB to ask if I can take over the counter meds instead.  Wowzers.

I sincerely hope everything baby-related won't be this expensive.  *big sigh*

And baby makes three.

We're having a baby!!!!

Can you believe it?  No?  Me either.  :) I'm still in shock and am very slowly starting to get excited.  I am almost 8 weeks and feeling really sick, but am being reminded daily that this sickness will be all worth it about 9 months from now.  :)  Tyler has been incredible and has been more excited and open-minded than I ever imagined he would be which has definitely made this big transition a little easier.  The first day when I was sobbing and scared out of my mind, I was reminded that "even though I don't think I'm ready to be a Mom, obviously God does."  Wow - funny how He works sometimes.  

We had our first doctors appt this past week and had an ultrasound and got to hear the heartbeat.  What an absolutely amazing experience.  What an incredible miracle this is.  The doctor joked that it was "definitely a boy" because of the strong heartbeat, but when I asked him if he was serious, he chuckled and said "No, but they do say that the stronger heartbeat does mean a boy.  So we'll see."  :)

Wow, how surreal.  I am feeling over a million emotions right now, so hold on tight as you go through these next 9 months with me.